this emptiness

Have you ever come to a point in life
where you don't really know what matters anymore
you feel blank all the time
filled with emptiness
all you wanna do
is just sit in a corner of your room
and let your heart beat to these
sad sad songs
with almost suicidal lyrics


you feel like you're going
through identity crisis again
it's not supposed to happen twice
I just don't know what i like anymore
I don't know who I really am anymore


they say the blues will go away
but what if they just stay
you constantly feel this
sadness
eating through your heart
like a bowl of salt spread on a fresh wound

you've reached your breaking point
but you just don't know what to do anymore

everything is so mundane
you wonder
why
it's emptiness haunting you again
you start to lose interest in almost everything
nothing excites you anymore , the enthusiasm
died off just like that
like a spark on a match

so bummed out most of the time
you start to doubt
the meaning of life